SO THERE WERE FLYERS ON CAMPUS SAYING WE GOT A REDBOX AND I WAS LIKE FUCK YEAH. SO I WENT OT RENT A MOVIE. AND IT WAS SOME FROG ENTERTAINMENT THING AND I READ ALL THE INSTRUCTIONS AND IT SAID IT IT WOULD CHARGE 1.49 SO I WENT TO MY BANK ACCOUNT ONLINE AND THEY CHARGED ME $7.00. I RETURNED IT IN A DAY. WTH AND I GOOGLED TO SEE THE COMPANYS WEBSITE AND ALL I GET ARE RESULTS FOR PRINCESS AND THE FROG.
Before I was going to change my major. I just don’t think that I am creative enough and stuff to do graphic design. I can’t explain it. Like, I can’t really draw. I am horrible at drawing. I don’t even know why I am trying. But I really, really like graphic design.
And then I was like, no, I can do this. And suddenly I am feeling nervous about it again. Like, if I don’t get accepted into the program I wasted a year and a half. I don’t know what to do. I don’t even know anything else I would want to major in.
I just constantly feel like I can’t do it. And I go to my art classes and everyone around me is doing so much better. And see things that people post online that are better. And I don’t know how to be better.
I am trying to make my become suspicious of me. Example; a couple days ago she asked me who I went to dinner with. I was like, “Huh??” And she was like who did you go to dinner with so I was like your mom. And then just stared at her.
And I was doing laundry and studying in the laundry room and I just got and this happens: Her: “Where were you?” Me: (for some reason I made my hands into antlers) “Laundry, doing laundry.” Her: “That whole time?” Me: “Yeah.” Her: “What did you do?” Me: “Laundry” :|| Her: “Weren’t you bored??” Me: “No.” and then she stared at me.
I don’t know if it is working. I don’t care if it is. I just feel like doing weird things. Idek. I don’t have a lot going on. I don’t even know what she would be suspicious of. I DON’T CAREEEEE. But I did read half of a 56 page book for my test on Thursday. >:)