IT WAS SO INVITING IT HURT MY BONES

Chris Pine’s eyes are too blue in all these Star Trek...

Sat, 25 May 2013 12:56:30 -0400

Chris Pine’s eyes are too blue in all these Star Trek edits, it is terrifying me.

sleepofreason: cuethesun: sleepofreason: I am seeing Fall Out Boy in 5 days???!!!! no you...

Sat, 25 May 2013 12:49:00 -0400

cuethesun:

sleepofreason:

I am seeing Fall Out Boy in 5 days???!!!!

no you aren’t

excuse me…? I have the tickets and I bought it and paid for it so you can go away now.

and here we have sarah teasing amanda and now sarah doesn’t know if amanda is teasing back or genuinely mad.

sleepofreason: I am seeing Fall Out Boy in 5 days???!!!! no you aren’t

Sat, 25 May 2013 12:33:02 -0400

sleepofreason:

I am seeing Fall Out Boy in 5 days???!!!!

no you aren’t

sleepofreason: WHY IS IT SO COLD? IT’S THE END OF MAY

Sat, 25 May 2013 10:50:36 -0400

sleepofreason:

WHY IS IT SO COLD? IT’S THE END OF MAY

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Sat, 25 May 2013 10:35:34 -0400

I made a game with Scratch about my job. TTYL I’ve officially lost my mind and it’s just...

Fri, 24 May 2013 22:28:44 -0400

I made a game with Scratch about my job.

TTYL I’ve officially lost my mind and it’s just a big boat now.

In a strange turn of events I procrastinated a NAP to turn my...

Fri, 24 May 2013 21:49:31 -0400

In a strange turn of events I procrastinated a NAP to turn my anti-smoking-sexy-skull-lady shirt into a v-neck so maybe I’ll wear it when I see dem fall out boiz next week.

Rupture - 9X12 in, Coffee, Pencil, Thread

Fri, 24 May 2013 21:43:48 -0400

Rupture - 9X12 in, Coffee, Pencil, Thread

sincerelysloth replied to your post: A really disorienting thing happened to me… ...

Thu, 23 May 2013 16:04:08 -0400

sincerelysloth replied to your post: A really disorienting thing happened to me…

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Hi Toni!!!!!!!!

Jesse on Conan, May 22, 2013. (x) “We filmed on Bourbon Street,...

Thu, 23 May 2013 12:53:27 -0400

Jesse on Conan, May 22, 2013. (x)

“We filmed on Bourbon Street, and I think half the people were hired by the movie to act like they were crazy, and the other half of the people were crazy.”

A really disorienting thing happened to me yesterday. And maybe it’s in bad taste to post it...

Thu, 23 May 2013 10:45:00 -0400

A really disorienting thing happened to me yesterday. And maybe it’s in bad taste to post it on my blog, but this is MY blog where I can talk about what ever the fuck I’m feeling, so fuck it.

These past few months have been fucking terrible for me man. I’m (well, was, now I guess, since the semester is over) doing terrible in school, I work full time to have no money, I have to deal with shitty roommates, my dad moved to NC in whats seems to be him creating an entire new family which involves him ignoring me when I call him crying or to wish him a happy birthday, and mostly I’m fucking LONELY. I work or go to school and mostly go home. And it’s really fucking draining. And for anyone who knows me personally they know I am neurotic, and a bit insane, and my mind is always thinking about 10 things at once. And I think I’m super independent. Sure, maybe I rely on my friends a lot, but that’s being HUMAN. And when you spend so much time with your own thoughts, company is much welcomed, and loved. All I want to do is give love, and accept love y’all. But, I want to make it clear that my wanting company doesn’t make me any less independent than anyone else. I work for myself, put myself through school, go home to be by myself, make my own meals and just fucking do everything MYSELF. Just me. That is independence.

So I work. I go to school. I sleep. And when I’m not doing these things I’m hanging out with some friends or some boys or doing whatever I want. But all the time you know what I worry about? Money. And do you know why? I’ve been poor for nearly my entire life. And I know what could happen. And I know if I can’t pay rent or get kicked out there is no one helping me. Not my father, not my sisters, no one. And that is terrifying when you can hardly make ends meet. I can’t move back home, because that isn’t a HOME anymore for me. There is no one there, and it would be even worse because I would be unemployed.

So when I see someone these are the things running through my mind. And they are the things I’m talking about. I’m talking about money, roommates, and how terrible I am at school. (And not talking about work, because why would I want to talk about something already consuming my whole life?) The only fun thing I have to talk about is boys. I don’t have time for hobbies. I don’t have time to start a community garden, or fucking sewing my own sweaters, become vegan,start yoga, bird-watching or whatever the fuck hip things people do with their free time (a concept I don’t even understand). I don’t talk about my goals because, SHOCKER, I’m 22. I don’t KNOW what I want. I have an idea but I’m so intimidated that I’ll fail I don’t tell anyone, then it’s not embarrassing when I do. And I’m sorry if these topics are trite to certain people who may have the privilege of not being constantly underneath a cloud of worry. I have plenty of things I would love to pursue or talk about. But I just don’t have the fucking time. Or even capacity to WORRY ABOUT IT. Because, man I would. I worry about every fucking thing. I worry about how my bangs look, and if people judge me for the music I listen to on the fucking subway.

So when I message my best friend telling her I miss her, and want to spend time with her, and that I am generally feeling shitty lately, and that I wanna see her without her bf or without her blowing me off I am FLOORED when she writes back insulting me. I thought the message I sent was perfectly nice. I had my other bff read it to confirm. I worried and worried she would take it the wrong way and, well, I guess that’s what happened.

She told me that I talk about the same things all the time and it’s boring. Her other friends talk about their lives, goals, jobs and hobbies and I, well, don’t. So I’m boring, and she can’t even be bothered to feign interest anymore. So sorry, I’m stuck in a slump right now. Sorry I can’t be interesting enough or have enough passions to make enthralling conversation, but it’s not exactly like she brings much to the table conversation wise either.

So, in the words of one of my personal kings, Kanye, “My presence is a present, kiss my ass.”

That is all.

But to her, sorry if it pisses you off reading this but at least you aren’t going to break down at work in front of the staff.

hi, i’m an expert in crying off my eyeliner. hmu

Wed, 22 May 2013 16:56:34 -0400

hi, i’m an expert in crying off my eyeliner.

hmu

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Wed, 22 May 2013 16:25:24 -0400

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Wed, 22 May 2013 09:46:47 -0400

sleepofreason: I was gonna say why did I wake up at 5 but I know why! It’s cause my roommate, for...

Wed, 22 May 2013 09:31:33 -0400

sleepofreason:

I was gonna say why did I wake up at 5 but I know why! It’s cause my roommate, for some unknown reason, decided that he couldn’t sleep in his bed and he came into my room and laid down in my sister’s bed (she isn’t home) and I was so uncomfortable that I couldn’t fall back asleep so I just got up. It was just so weird and I didn’t want him in there and I felt just uncomfortable and like he was in my space. Like, why the fuck are you in my room???

lmfao sometimes i think of rob as like a puppy

idk.

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Tue, 21 May 2013 16:57:59 -0400

mykicks: I know you’re all feeling the darkness here today,...

Tue, 21 May 2013 11:02:29 -0400

mykicks:

I know you’re all feeling the darkness here today, but there’s no reason to give in.

this episode was so crazy

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Tue, 21 May 2013 10:57:34 -0400

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Sun, 19 May 2013 23:11:54 -0400

Also; I’m finally (officially as of last weekend when I saw him and didn’t give a FUCK)...

Sun, 19 May 2013 12:44:14 -0400

Also;

I’m finally (officially as of last weekend when I saw him and didn’t give a FUCK) over that bro I’ve been whining about for the past like year and a half (if you follow my posts at ALL you might have noticed.)

So, round of applause please, I mean, I guess.